"Did you ever notice how, when someone tells you that you've changed, its because you've stopped acting the way they want you to?"
Honestly, I feel like I've changed quite a lot this summer. I've become much more responsible, taking on all of the housework during the day while my parents are at work and helping with a tennis camp held by my coach. I'm much more family-oriented, spending many, many weekends with both my imediate and extended family. And I'm much more confident, meeting many new people each week and becoming comfortable with my body. I've even done something I've been scared to do for most of my life - get my hair drastically cut. I got six inches off! I'm so proud of myself! I'm closing in on my senior year and am convinced that it will be my best year of high school yet. Ever since I was little, I've wanted to become a teacher and this school-year I will be doing a share-time. This means I will spend half of my day in my regular classes, and the second half in a classroom as a teacher's aid! It's impossible to describe how excited I am to start with the little kids! I also hope to be taking pre-calc (as recomended by my cousin who is a calculus teacher) and am considering taking another art class.
But, with all of these changes has come quite the bit of drama...
Because my boyfriend plays tennis and will be nearly impossible to get ahold of for the first three or so months of school, we have been trying to get as much time together as we possibly can this summer. This was upsetting a few friends of ours and caused quite the chaos for awhile... The drama is over now, but honestly, I still don't see what the problem was in the first place. I understand why my boyfriend's friends were mad at him, they were mad that he wasn't coming to their Youth Group anymore. But I really don't see why my friends were mad at me. I mean, none of them ever asked me to hang out. And if they did, not once did I say that I couldn't because I was planning to be with my boyfriend. I honestly don't feel like I was really missed by anyone... I don't know... I'm really not mad about it anymore, but I just feel like I still need to vent my feelings about all of this, because, really, I have no one to talk to about it other than my boyfriend. I feel like I can't even have an honest conversation with my closest friends anymore... *sigh*.
Who knows, maybe its just me, but I really feel like I only have one friend anymore...
I totally agree with the quote you said! Would you mind if i use it?
ReplyDeleteAnd when i first started dating my bf, my friends were like that too. They never wanted to hangout until last minute, and they knew that i always spent a specific day with my bf, and only that one day, but they wouldnt hang out with me any other time. When they got bfs, they ignored everyone. I just learned not to let it bother me. Theres only so much you can do.
That is awesome you want to be a teacher and that you get to be a teacher's aide. I considered being a teach, but i cant make up my mind. Im dreading pre-calculus, but im taking it anyways. Good luck to you with your school year!
P.S. I commented on almost all of your posts. I didn't mean to, but i liked a lot of them.
Thanks so much for reading, Tiffany! I'm excited to hear what you think of future blogs as well :)
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